Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Dear Michaela,

It is November 18th.  Today is an anniversary as well.  Really, it is a more important anniversary than November 19th.  Today is the anniversary of the last day we spent together.  It is the anniversary of the last day of innocence and joy.  What did we do on that day, do you remember?  It was a school day, so it was probably pretty routine. 

I do remember that night, though.  You had a bad dream or something, because when I woke up in the middle of the night you were in my bed.  I remember reaching out in the dark and running my fingers through your silky hair, and that's how I knew it was you.  That was the last time I was able to be there to comfort your fears in the night. 

There were so many worst things after that, but this ranked right up there with the worst ... that I knew you were afraid, and there wasn't a thing I could do about it.  I couldn't find you, I couldn't get to you, I couldn't save you, protect you, hold you.  I am so sorry, so very sorry, Michaela. 

If I ever find you, I will want to hold you forever, and I will make certain that nothing ever makes you afraid again, nothing ever makes you sad.  We will take all the love we haven't been able to give each other for the last 21 years and spin it into beautiful dreams, and they will all come true.

I love you forever, baby girl.
mom

9 comments:

  1. I know your heart must be feeling very heavy at the moment. Your mind is probably counting every second as it ticks by. Your probably feeling that horrible sense of dread. The enormity of what November 19th means in your life must leave you feeling aghast, anguished, sorrowful, torn and just downright devastated.

    Even though it has been 20 years I know you have probably never really come to terms with it. I am sure you still feel a sense of horror every so often when it hits you. You must be feel a terrible sense of regret and grief over how different things could have been if only...? I understand that intense pain when feel your heart physically breaking in to pieces.

    Tomorrow IS a sad day, nothing can change that. Your heart is going to break tomorrow. I wish I could make it better.

    However I do beleive that there is still no full stop on Michaela's story just yet. I beleive God is preparing you for something big. Well, to be honest, I don't know if I believe that or I am just willing it so badly. Either way it is still very possible.

    That day, the real day you have been waiting for all this time is still possible and this year has shown us that more than ever.

    God knows what happened that day and God also knows when the day you have been waitng for will finally come. When it be his will, it will happen. You have shown so much patience. Just a little more I guess. Be strong tomorrow for Michaela's sake.

    Saying a pray for you always. God Bless.

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  2. "A yellow ribbon is a symbol with various meanings, mostly associated with those waiting for the return of a loved one who are temporarily unable to come home".

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  3. Dear Sharon ,

    This day is definately the most difficult one for you .I pray that God will lead you through this difficult time.

    I have a message for Micheala and a couple others .I believe she is out there ,,,can you please post it for me?

    Dear Micheala,

    I had no clue who you were...until a few months ago...got to know about you while reading upon the Jaycee Duguard story...and then got on to this blog which i visit daily ...and feels like I know you well (thanks to your Mom) I am a couple of years older than you are and many times I have thought what it would if it was me instead of you or Jaycee...i wold surely be terribly scared but most of all I'd wonder why my parents did not come to get me or find me ...i would be very angry with them for sure and would think that they dint love me or care for me enough to come and get me ...but Micheala it really is a very different story ..its really is like dying everyday if you are a parent of a missing child just wondering what happened to your child (I am a Mom now and dread to think of anything happening to my child) your Mom has done everything she could to find you but alas it was way bk in 1988...things have changed now ...we now have the internet...which is so powerful that we can reach you and you know know what all your Mom did to find you and now through this blog she is reaching out to you ...u also want to remember that you have a brother and sisters that ure Mom also had to take care of ...and to top it a job too ...can you image how it might have been for her to go on with life with the thought of what you might be going through ...
    I also think of Jaycee's Mom ...Terry Probyn...how one day he whole world was shattered when she probabably got a phone call in 1991 that her daughter was kidnapped ...and what joy she might have felt with the a phone call 18 yrs later that her daughter is alive.Can you give let your mother feel this happiness by calling her?You now will be a 29 yr old ...might have kids too and for sure have bonded with the people you are with and rightly so coz you were with them double the time you were with your Mom.but your Mom also has every right to be with you dear...it was not her fault or not even yours that you were kidnapped .Had Trina went the direction you went to pick the scooter she would have been taken .All that Ime trying to say here was that it was not a planned event .It was an unfortunate one that happened ..i know you have a loving heart and know that you have the desire too to get back to your Mom...maybe wary of wat would happen to the person who took u ...this ime sure is something that can be worked out ...can you please call your Mon and keep our faith alive?(u may not be aware but this blog and ure Mom is an inspiration to many )Micheala due to this unfortunate incident you were snatched away from your Mom and had ure Mom been there she would have done anything not to let it happen ..but this probably was bound to happen so it happened ...maybe u missed 20 yrs but there is also so much to look forward to ...if you have children dont deprive them of their grandmothers love...Terry Probyn got her granddaughter the at the same age that her daughter was taken away...isnt that a beautiful coincidence ..please act now Micheala

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  4. Continuing my previous messsage)
    To to Person who took Micheala away,

    If you have been reading this blog I am sure you understand what a daughter means to her Mother ,you have bonded with Micheala I agree ,but Ime sure you dont want to see a Mom pleading for her daughter to contact her after waiting for 20 yrs...you can make it happen.. please send Micheala back to her Mom ...you might like Micheala but her Mom loves her...


    To Anyone who knows about Micheala,

    You have been carrying this in your heart for 20 yrs now and it sure by now is a heavy burden ...ime sure you agree that its a terrible thing to image someone dear to you gets kidnapped and there is a person out there who knows what happened but is not letting it out...please u have a chance to turn this whole story around ..please act fast

    Hoping that God shows u the right way

    Hopes,
    Shine

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  5. (Continuing my previous message)To to Person who took Micheala away,

    If you have been reading this blog I am sure you understand what a daughter means to her Mother ,you have bonded with Micheala I agree ,but Ime sure you dont want to see a Mom pleading for her daughter to contact her after waiting for 20 yrs...you can make it happen.. please send Micheala back to her Mom ...you might like Micheala but her Mom loves her...


    To Anyone who knows about Micheala,

    You have been carrying this in your heart for 20 yrs now and it sure by now is a heavy burden ...ime sure you agree that its a terrible thing to image someone dear to you gets kidnapped and there is a person out there who knows what happened but is not letting it out...please u have a chance to turn this whole story around ..please act fast

    Hoping that God shows u the right way

    Hopes,
    Shine

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  6. Sharon and Michaela,

    My thoughts, prayers, and love are with you. We will be binding our trees tomorrow with ribbons.

    Best,
    Penny Dawn

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  7. I am praying for Michaela with all my heart. May God shower His infinite Blessings on her. I pray that she can be found and be back again with you.

    Peace and love,
    Radhika

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  8. Sharon, please don't blame yourself. Michaela would have come back home that day if that man had not done his evil deed.

    You have done everything humanly possibly and more to find her! Your love for Michaela flows like the ocean, in your words and actions. You have given her more love than many can give in a lifetime.

    There is One who loves her more than all of us put together - her Creator. God fill find a way to comfort her and make her happy. I pray to Him to bring the day soon when she knows how dearly she is loved by her parents, family, friends and even thousands of people who have never met her!

    God bless you and comfort you on this difficult day. As always, I am continuing to pray for her safe return.

    Peace and love,
    Radhika

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  9. i live in wales great britain.ive read every part of this website.and watched every video and gone to every link...i cannot begin to imigaine how you are feeling..i dont know why but im allways watching programmes on the discorvery about missing children or what have you..but i feel is something really close to my heart.even though nothing as horendous as this has happened to my family.i was only 1 years old when your daughter was taken and have two daughters now myslef...and couldn't iminagine what i would do if someone took one of them...theres just one thing ive got to say to you sharon keeping coping the way you currently are...i will pray for your daughter and pray she comes home safe to you.im allready praying for madeline maccan so i will pray for your beautiful micheala...lots of love and hope carly jenkins xxxxx

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