Thursday, November 19, 2009

Dear Michaela,

Good morning, baby.  Here are some videos for you.  In this first one, the lyrics of the song, "I promise you, I'm always there" ... I know they refer to God, but I want you to know they refer to me also.  Even though I couldn't find you, I have always been with you in my heart. I have always been with you in your heart.  Whenever you may have longed just to be loved, know that you always have been.  The second one is Trina.  I thought you might want to see her.







I will write more later.  I love you, Michaela.

mom

4 comments:

  1. hi Sharon,

    I stay pretty close to Hayward...actually in San Jose ..and i really thought many times I would come to the store where you would be today to tie ribbons and pray...but had I had a stronger heart I would have ...it has become a habit now to come to this blog and get emotional...but maybe i just wanted to come there and give you a hug...but i know for sure I would be weeping ...so i dint ...i was on the way to work at 10 and just kept remembering Micheala on the way ...praying that God answers all our prayers soon ...remember there are many out there praying for u and Micheala ....just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts this morning...
    Shine

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  2. I started my day today thinking of you and hoping you could draw strength from those supporting you as you face yet another anniversary without your daughter. And at the end of the day, as I was running errands with my husband, I was waiting in the car for him outside a store. I looked over at some townhouses nearby and saw two little girls, probably around age 8 or 9, playing outside in the yard. I immediately thought of Michaela and Trina. Two little girls innocently playing, seemingly without a care in the world. And while most of me was overcome with grief for you and Trina and your families, a part of me was so angry that someone could just drive up and take your daughter away from you. What right did he have to do that? And then get away with it for 21 years? Then I thought back to your messages to your daughter. Messages you filled with promise and hope and most of all love. I know if she is able, she feels your love. And I will continue to pray for you and Michaela, and that anyone who knows anything about her disappearance would come forward.

    Michele

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  3. Thank you for sharing Michaela with all of us that have become faithful followers of your blog. It is amazing how many times my own heart "wondered" to thoughts of Michaela today. I have a beautiful little girl and for the last few months I have been trying to teach her to stay in her bedroom and overcome her night time (imagined) fears. Lately, however, I have been quietly accepting her into my bed at night. Every now and again I run my hands through her silky hair and remind myself how blessed I am to be able to offer her my closeness, which for her equates to love, protection, warmth and security.

    I cannot even begin to imagine your journey; How incredibly unfair it is that your ability to give your precious daughter your closeness, your protection, your warmth and your security was so brutally stolen from you on this day 21 years ago.

    But the love you gave and shared with Michaela could not be stolen. It fills these pages and is an inspiration to so many of us. I believe that I come to read so often because you have an amazing ability to put down into words what is so difficult ot describe: a Mother's unconditional and undying love.

    Because you have been so honest with us, I feel like I should be honest too. I tend to believe the terrible statistics and think that Michaela is most likely past from this life. But, how can one argue with hope?? Whatever the most likely scenario, I do agree that there is always hope!

    And so, I try to imagine her out there reading your words. You describe her as a beautiful loving girl, and I have no doubt that she was/is. I wonder, though, if SHE believes it? I wonder if she no longer recognizes herself as that beautiful innocent child, and associates herself with those that are responsible for her abduction/captivity. Maybe there have been more girls? Maybe she feels guilt or responsibilty because she did not or could not help others? Maybe she is caught in a life that is filled with drugs and other hard things. Maybe she foolishly thinks your unconditional love is only for the Michaela that you remember, and not for the woman she is is today?

    I think most of your readers know better. But I wonder if she has the confidence and self worth to know that your love for Michaela accepts all that she is today; the good, the bad and the ugly. I wonder if she knows that there is no shame, no guilt, no questions. If she is reading this, then above all else, she is a survivor, and whatever she has done to survive is a testament to her and would never lessen your love and how much we all want her home.

    If she is not reading this, and has passed, still, she is a survivor of a different sort. And even in that scenario, whether we call it faith or hope, I do believe that you will be reunited again.

    God bless.

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  4. I'm mixed with emotion each time I come here. First, for Michaela and wondering where she is. Is she being held captive or willing to live in what she accepts as her life like Jacee? Or, is it far worse. Is she being held in a ring or worse gone. I can't imagine, but as a mother I'm overwhelmed by my pain for her and you Sharon. She isn't my daughter, but yet I wake up in the middle of the night unable to sleep, which is common with me, but I think of her. I pray for her, for you. I pray you are joined again. In my heart I know that if it doesn't happen here, the greatest thing is, it happens in heaven forever...one day, some day. Nothing can keep you apart forever. I just want whoever took her to come clean. He's probably my age now....45 or so. He was described as young by Trina. 20 something. A child thinks we are all old by then, but not all. He may have kids or be a total loner. I say to you, come out! Praise and find the lord. If you are afraid, then simply reveal where she is for Sharon. It is easy to do. I believe that if you are still alive....out of curiosity....you read this site. I believe it strongly. Give her up! If she is no longer here....then give her back. Give her to her mother. Tell her mother where to find her. If she is alive, and God knows I pray for this, then send a message...how, where, something. You took a child, a friend, a daughter, and most of all a human being who does not deserve this. You know it, and you need to give her back. Tell her mother where to find her. Give her access, and if she's gone, give her closure. This can be done without anyone knowing. Sharon, I love you and I pray for your united moment with Michaela. If not today, then tomorrow in heavan, because that can not be taken away.

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