Wednesday, January 13, 2010

All we need is love, continued

I just answered a comment on my previous blog from somebody who said that reading my blogs brightened her/his day.  That really means a lot to me.  I know I write about some really deep, sad stuff, and about the dark side of love, which is loss.  But what I'm trying to get across is the fact that this really makes love all the more precious, because when you enter into it you are paying the price of that possibility of love.  And if you are willing to pay such a high price for something, it must be really and truly valuable, right? 

You know, it goes back to that same question I've been asked so many times -- if I had known what was going to happen to Michaela, would I have chosen to have her or not?  In order to spare her the suffering she had to endure, I might not have.  But for myself, I've just got to say that the love and joy she brought to my life was worth any price.  You know what Garth Brooks says: 

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd have had to miss the dance.

So celebrate, people!  Dance!

4 comments:

  1. Sharon, you're an incredible woman! Though I often leave your page with tears in my eyes, I am ALWAYS inspired by your strength

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  2. Sharon

    I had no idea your hopes were so specific during the finding of Jaycee. I can understand the crushing depression you recently went through all the more now. The fact that you thought that you were so close to having Michaela back, like you said its like you had to go through it all over again.

    I just want you to know that you that even Jaycee's mum went through the same thing. I'm sure you are aware that 2 suspects who looked similar to the suspects Jaycee's step father remembered kidnapping Jaycee were arrested for another kidnapping, a few years before Jaycee was found. The kidnapping they arrested for was horrible and they murdered thier victim. They were so similar to the suspects Jaycee's step father remembered that I am sure it seemed like that they were the people who must of taken Jaycee. The same way it seems that Garrido must have been involved with Michaela's disappearance.

    Anyway my point is at that time Jaycee's mother also must have gone through the same thing as you when that lead resulted in nothing. She must of felt like she was never going to find out the fate of her child and somehow her daughter had got lost in time and space. Like she was trapped in an neverending maze of disappointments. She must have felt for sur that she would never see her girl again no matter how much she hoped for it. Yet we know now that her baby was living just miles away from her the whole time.

    Somehow she carried on with her life not knowiing and feeling like she would never know. How wonderful the ending to her story was. Lets hope your story is on its way up to its happy ending too.

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  3. The suspects you are talking about are James Deveggio and Michelle Michaud, and they were considered in connection with Michaela's kidnapping as well. Believe me, I have been going through everything and more for forever. That is not new. What was new was the hope. And while hope seems to most to be a good thing, hope that is unfulfilled, much less downright dashed, is one of the most difficult things in the world to bear. In my humble opinion, anyway.

    Thanks,
    Sharon

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  4. Just for you..

    s = 39 year old female living in Santa Clara, grew up in San Francisco and remember hearing about Michaela when she was kidnapped. I work, have a six year old boy and a three year old girl and have commented here before, as anonymous. Your post about your mom left me sobbing but in a good take a lesson out of it way. And I'm trying to. And I appreciate every day that I have with my kids which I truly feel I have always done but your blog is also a good reminder. And last, I hope and yearn with all my heart that you get answers and Michaela.

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