It is Independence Day, Michaela! If you are out there somewhere, you too can be independent, and no fear or desire needs to keep you from it!
Someone asked me if you might be out there and have Stockholm Syndrome, where you actually want to be with your kidnapper and protect whoever it is because you have come to care about them. This would be a good thing for you, of course, but please try to remember your family and how much we love you and miss you. You have a new little sister ... well, not so little anymore, since she is almost 18 now. And Alex has children. Libby is all grown up, and Robbie is 6'4"!
And as for me, my heart is broken. There is a dark hole in the center of my life, and even after almost 23 years it doesn't get any smaller. In fact, sometimes it seems like it's larger. I just take a stray step sometimes, not even realizing that I'm going that way, and fall into that black hole.
Michaela, do you remember? Search back through your mind and heart and find me there. Remember I told you I would always be there in your heart, even if I couldn't be with you sometimes? I am still there. And if you find me, don't let me go.
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I love you, baby girl. I love you forever.