Well, today was a very long, hard day at work, and who knows? That might be part of it. But I came home and walked into the house and was just overwhelmed with a feeling of overwhelming sadness, that sensation I have described before as like having a sack of wet cement poured into me, flowing down my spine, settling in my chest. Honestly, I just want to lie on the couch and cry, but I already asked my daughter if that would alarm her and she said it would. I just don't really know what to do with myself.