Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Dear Michaela

I never thought it would be this way. On this particular day in the history of the world, perhaps we might be Christmas shopping, maybe for presents for your kids. Maybe we'd have a phone conversation, or send each other photos on facebook. That is the way it was supposed to be. Not like this, sitting here not knowing where you are, what happened to you, waiting to find out if a three-inch fragment of bone was once a part of that beautiful, warm little girl I held in my arms.

I miss you so much, Michaela. I love you forever.

mom

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  1. My heart goes out to you Sharon. I'm not a mother, so I can't begin to imagine. I'm not religious so I won't pray. But my heart and thoughts are with you.

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  2. Oh Sharon this just breaks my heart. No one should have to suffer the way you have. I hope you get a Christmas miracle that the bone is not Michaela's.

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  3. I feel so bad about that little girl.

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    1. Okay, I've been waiting for the anonymous person above to respond. Did anyone else find that comment a little odd?

      Cindy

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    2. I thought it was oddly phrased myself, impersonal, like something that might be left on a websleuths page or something, rather than on her mom's blog. But perhaps I am just overly sensitive.

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    3. I don't think you're overly sensitive. I thought it was strange for two reasons. First, because it was so impersonal, and second, because normally when someone says they feel bad about something, they feel somehow responsible for it. Sometimes messages just don't come across as intended. This one struck me as unlike the rest of the messages we read here.

      Cindy

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    4. You're not the only one. This message set wrong with me too. Can't put my finger on it.

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  4. My prayers are with you everyday. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think about you and Michaela. Being the mother of five I cannot imagine not know where one of my babies had disappeared to. I remember what you said about that last night you had with Michaela and it has changed me deep inside. I have a four year old little girl that will get up once in awhile at night. She comes into my room and brushes my arm gently. She has her pillow and blanket in her arms and she wants me to go lay on the couch with her. Before hearing your story I would take her back to her own bed and tell her she needed to stay there. However now I am more than happy to jump up and go lay down by her. I treasure every night that she gets me up. You have made me a more caring loving mother.

    Edelweiss

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    1. Oh Edelweiss, thank you for telling me that. The picture of your little girl with her pillow and blanket in her arms brings a lump to my throat. Those moments are precious. And I'm here to tell you now, having raised Michaela's four brothers and sisters this way, that they all grow up to be independent and don't want you to sleep with them anymore. (Although it is true that my youngest still likes to have the dog sleep with her.)

      Love to you both.

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    2. So true Sharon! I don't know any teenagers who still sleep with their mommies! :) I slept with both my babies and still sleep with my three-year old for half of every night and I cherish every minute. As long as everyone is getting the sleep they need, all is well.

      Cindy.

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  5. I think this is one of those times you just have give it to god or the universe or fate... The truth is what it it is and nothing can change that. Should the results not go the way your heart hopes for, I am certain Michaela will be there holding your hand, along with the thousands of people who love and care about you both.

    Sending you strength and love..

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    1. I agree. There would be two sources of comfort in a positive result - the knowledge that Michaela is not suffering and that she may on some level be there for Sharon. Ahh...there's just nothing to say. I write, I delete. It's just so sad. Sending you strength and courage, Sharon.
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  6. Oh Sharon,
    My heart just aches for you. I have checked on this page once a week lately, hoping for your miracle:) I have two boys, 5 and 4 and can't imagine in the slightest what you must go through each day not knowing.
    I tear up when I read your posts, I am praying for a miracle for you.
    Anna x


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  7. I think of you and Michaela every day, Sharon. Every time I sign into Facebook I steele myself wondering if you have heard anything. I think you are a strong, remarkable woman.Love and prayers to you.

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  8. I'm so sorry Sharon. Your love is strong. I hope your little girl comes home safe. Hope is strong. Sending love to you and your family. <3

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  9. Sharon, read that the bone with mitocohnrial dna didnt match your exhusband, Roo. but it has significant resemblence to yours? and herzog and "Jason" possibly shermantine might have killed youngsters.

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    1. What you read is incorrect. They were not able to extract a full DNA panel from the bone. From what they were able to extract, there were some matches to my DNA, although they were not uncommon -- kind of like having O positive blood. There were no matches to Michaela's father. When they cannot to a regular DNA panel they use the mitochondrial DNA instead. This is more precise, and is passed only from mother to child.

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    2. So I guess this most likely Michaela's bone :[ sooooo sad at least she's not in pain anymore and does the bone tell the cause of death?

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    3. Anonymous,no more than your Drivers license tells your IQ. I suggest you read through the blog. Nothing has been discerned yet and Sharon has not updated us otherwise.

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  10. Thinking of you and Michaela <3

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  11. So is Herzog still a minor suspect in this case? Are the other suspects who's names aren't released yet still being looked at?

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    1. Herzog is still a major suspect in the case. The results have not yet come back on the bone, and in the meantime the investigators have been looking into Herzog in other ways. But yes, there are about six other people considered to be top suspects whose names have not been released.

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  12. I check your blog everyday for news. Michaela is always on my mind and in my heart.

    - Julia

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  13. Just to echo what Julia said - I check your blog every day for news, and pray daily for you and Michaela. What a lucky girl she is to have such an amazing Mom.
    Xo
    Julie

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  14. Julie and Julia! Hahaha! But seriously, thanks. Should be soon now, this week or next I'm guessing.

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    1. Sharon, just before all of this news broke regarding the bone fragment, you had been given information indicating that Michaela could be in the UAE. If the current tests come up negative, will you continue to pursue that line of inquiry? Maybe this is too much for you to think about right now...if so, I'm sorry.

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    2. Yes, that is one of the things I will have to explore. Investigating that lead proved to be very difficult, but I will be on it.

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  15. Same here, I check your blog several times a day, for news or new blogs... How are you doing Sharon? It must be very hard when it getting closer and closer to find out?

    I feel anxious and restless some how, my nerves is kind of "outside" my skin, and I pray that this is not Michaela. I also pray that you and your family can deal with this in a "good" way, I pray for peace for you all.

    But I cant stop hoping that Michaela is out there, alive and well, and I wish for her to come home...

    Love from Åsa in Sweden

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  16. I saw this article on the acquittal of the 13 people accused of the disappearance of a girl in Argentina. The article made me sad, and it reminded me of course of the girls here in the States that disappear. The only thing that gave me hope is it appears that at least some people in Argentina are upset by the corruption and the injustice of the verdict. It is unfortunately baby steps to make progress for change. And some days I get overwhelmed when I think about how powerful these syndicates are.

    http://news.yahoo.com/argentines-shocked-verdicts-sex-slave-trial-191140523.html

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  17. Sharon-I am praying for you and Michaela this Christmas season. Your blogs are powerful and I wish so much for you to have peace and comfort. I hope we meet someday, Diana

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  18. Dear Sharon,
    I grew up in Stockton, California and remember when this horrible incident happened. There was a rash of child abductions in a short time-frame if I remember correctly. My own son was a was 14 months old when this happened--it terrified me needless to say. I now live in Louisville Ky. I remember seeing the man's face who took your precious girl ALL over the news in the artists/police sketch of him, and i remember all the deep ugly pock marks and deep deep acne marks the police sketch showed on his face. Herzog did not have acne marks, nor does Shermantime. The bastards that the are, they both have/had nice smooth skin. The man who took Michaela did not. He had horribly acne scarred skin, deep acne pock mark scars do NOT go away...EVER. Maybe fade a little, but never completely disappear. There is no way Herzog and/or Shermantime could get rid of those scars for pictures and television cameras, (even with plastic surgery, those scars look waaaay too deep, but i doubt that is something those monsters would have tried to improve anyway) not if his skin really looks like what was portrayed in the police sketch. Anyway, I am not trying to bring up painful memories for you, just trying to point out an obvious characteristic that you may very well have already noticed yourself no doubt and give you a little hope that maybe that bone fragment may not be your beautiful baby girls bone. God bless. I will keep you in my prayers.

    Sincerely,
    Paula

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    1. Thanks, Paula, but the eyewitness said that Michaela's kidnapper had severe acne, "like boils." Severe acne is a very common side effect of methamphetamine use. Nor does that kind of acne always leave a mark or scar. My younger son had really severe acne when he was in high school, but now his skin is perfectly smooth and clear. So I definitely can't discount Shermantine or Herzog based on this. Unfortunately, there may be other factors which will prevent them from being eliminated, even if this bone does not turn out to be Michaela.

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  19. If you feel comfortable to tell us, please do. Is there something, other than the bone, that could implicate them? other than the "right" time and area?

    Dear god, I hope not....

    hugs

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    1. I really don't feel that I can, Asa. It is just my policy to not reveal details of the investigation that have been shared with me unless I have been told it's okay. Thanks.

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  20. I'm not saying that Tim Bindner is responsible for your daughters disappearance. I just want to know, is it true that Tim predicted that Michaela would be the next to be kidnapped? That he sent Michaela letters?

    Tim Bindner sounds like a guy who wants to do good things, but he ends up doing more harm than good. Which he doesn't mean.

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    1. No, he did not. That is absolutely false. Where did you hear it?

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    2. I think what anonymous means is Tim Bindner sent the FBI a card that predicted a girl of 9 years old would disappear. And then Michaela disappeared shortly thereafter. He then sent a photo of a girl holding up 4 fingers. And Amanda Nikki Campbell,who was 4,disappeared shortly after. Tim Bindner has long been looked at as a "person of interest" in the Bay Area disappearances of various girls. And I hope and pray that the discovery of the possibility of Michaela being found,I hope it will shed light onto Amandas case and the other girls.

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    3. I have been very involved with the Tim Bindner thing. I was very close to a reporter who spent hours interviewing him and was probably going to write a book except someone else beat her to it. But he has never been considered a serious suspect by the Hayward PD because he just doesn't match our composite.

      I think Tim likes attention, and he has done a lot to feed that, but I don't think he is responsible for kidnapping any of the kids. After all, we know he didn't cause the Loma Prieta Earthquake here in 1989, and yet there he was on television as a hero for helping to dig bodies out of the rubble. The first child to make him a suspicious character was Angela Bugay, who was found murdered in 1983. Tim had a truly unhealthy obsession with her. And yet the man who did murder her was eventually arrested and tried, and it wasn't Tim.

      As for the age thing, I don't think kids have their ages tattooed on their foreheads, so it would be a stretch to think that he'd target a child of a specific age. I can tell you for sure that wasn't the case with Michaela. In fact, Michaela was not targeted at all. She just had the random bad luck to be the one who went after the scooter that had been moved.

      Tim has encouraged the speculation and attention. And others have tried to make money off it. Because of that a lot of sensationalistic but not really well grounded stories have been spread. The guy who wrote the book about Tim Bindner went so far as to try to make our composite look like Tim by cutting the hair. Now that makes no sense at all. Tim was who he was the day Michaela was kidnapped. In fact, Tim came to my house the day Michaela was kidnapped. He bore not the tiniest resemblance to the kidnapper.

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  21. I am sorry Sharon, I did not know this other info about the boils as opposed to actual scars. I apologize. You are right about the "meth face" look of people who are addicted to speed/methamphetamine. If it was or wasn't Herzog, may he rot in hell. If it was Shermantime, I am sure he will follow when his time comes, whether it be at the hands of the state of California or he takes his last useless waste of oxygen last breath in his cell on Death Row. You and the families in the Connecticut school rampage are in my prayers. God bless.

    Sincerely,
    Paula

    P.S. I know this may seem trivial considering what your blog is about, but I am glad and happy for your son that his skin/face is nice and smooth now, it may seem trivial to everyone BUT the person whose face the skin is attached to.
    God speed Sharon.

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  22. I think Herzog also took Ilene Misheloff because Ilene looks similar to Kimberly Ann Billy who also has dark hair and brown eyes and other women that are still missing.

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  23. I read a news article that there were fetal remains found in the well along with clothing, shoes etc. Does anyone know if this is true?

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    1. We probably all read the same news articles. How would any of us have knowledge if it is true or not? And why on earth would this be the place to ask! Sharon doesnt need more horrible things to think about. Please try to be more sensitive.

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    2. Yes, I do understand there were fetal remains found. I spoke to one of the other moms, and I believe she said that there was an unidentified adult female and the fetus was hers. One of the few things I can be sure of is that the fetal remains have nothing to do with Michaela, since she was only nine years old at the time.

      A couple of local news sources have referred to Michaela as "local missing teen." That's so disrespectful. I think they know she was nine years old.

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    3. (I know that last thing was completely unrelated. Sorry! Just how my mind wanders these days.)

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  24. http://sacramento.cbslocal.com/2012/08/02/fetus-remains-found-in-well-of-speed-freak-killers/

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  25. If Michaela was killed by Herzog would you ever know what happened to her? Forensic astrology says that Michaela and her abductor got in arguments, did Herzog have a long history of road rage, traffic accidents, speeding and other infractions?

    http://forensicastrology.blogspot.com/2010/09/micheala-joy-garecht.html

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    1. That's because Herzog was a Sociopath and that is typical behavior of a sociopath. I imagine Michaela did fight back for herself,as any human being fearing for his or her life would. And I hope she got every blow into his outer reproductive organs that she could. I hope she hurt him so bad that he decided he got the wrong child and let her go.

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    2. Anonymous, I have read this blog before, and I just read it again, a couple of times. I didn't see anything here about Michaela and her abductor getting in arguments. Where did you see that? The notion of that happening is a little odd. In order to get involved in arguments, there has to be some sense of equality in the relationship, like two people disagreeing about where they are going to go. I do absolutely believe that Michaela would have fought back with everything she had, though. I have no idea of Herzog's driving record.

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    3. Sharon the article about Michaela and her abductor getting into arguements was from a astrology article. It was only speculation and in my eyes not worthy of reading.

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    4. If you are talking about the forensic astrology blog, I have read the article and I didn't see that in it. If it is something else, I'd like to have the link.

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  26. Sharon do you think your daughters remains have been already found and ruled out, I recently heard of the Colleen Orsborn case who was found weeks after her disapeerence and ruled out and was identified until 2010, a most likely victim of Christopher Wilder.

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  27. Sharon, My hopes and healing thoughts are with you and Michaela and your family, daily <3
    mary ann
    slz '72

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