In years past, I have let that anger flow outside myself, outside of us, and it was pretty awful. There are people who have known me over the years who would tell you that I was an angry person. For the most part that is over. For the most part, the depression and the pain are internalized. I am angry at the feelings, so I avoid them. I withdraw. So that is where I have been for the last few months.
There are still things going on in the investigation, moving ever so slowly, which has also been difficult for me. But you have not been forgotten, Michaela.
Regardless of anything else in the world, regardless of any other feelings I may have ever, or feelings I may bury from sight, there is one thing I know, and you need to know, and that is that I love you forever, baby girl.