Saturday, April 1, 2017

All stories begin and end with you


As you have probably noticed, I have had a hard time posting here for awhile. I guess I have been kind of wrapped up in my immediate problems dealing with breast cancer. But I find it has become more and more difficult, Michaela, to write about you. I am working on a couple of books, one nonfiction and one fiction. You are actually central to both of them, but I have found when I sit down to work on them that it has just become so hard. There are a million words to say, and I have said them all a million times. Each one of them carries the weight of the world. Does anyone need to be told? With all the words I have said, has not everyone heard the story? Like all I should have to do is say, "Michaela," and they will say, "Ah." And all the sorrow and grief, the unknown terror, will be there, because they know. How could they not know?

And yet they don't.

So one of the things I must do is gather the strength to simply keep you alive by telling your story over and over again, and million trillion times if need be. And the other thing I need to do is keep telling your story so that you can hear it, in case you have forgotten it as well.

I won't give up, Michaela. I promise. I will never give up.

Love you forever, baby girl.
mom

36 comments:

  1. I love your girl...and I will always pray she comes home to you. (((hugs)))

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  2. The world will never give up either. Think of you always Michaela. Praying always. I share the year of borta with you Michaela, and now 37 years old, my beloved daughter is nine years old. Your story is more close to me than ever. We believe in you Michaela ��

    Åsa in Sweden

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  3. The auto spelling is Swedish ��

    We share the year of birth of course ❤

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  4. Pleez pleez pleeeeeeez prayerfully go through your home & remove EVERY thing that relates to Lord Pluto!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    1. I recently came across a message you sent to me awhile back, which I had recorded in my Evernote account. Could you please do me a favor and email me at sharon.murch@gmail.com? I'd like to have a conversation with you.

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    2. Thank you, I will think about your conversation request. Meanwhile a little about me. To some in the world I would be considered an “Empath”, To some Bible Believers “A gifted Seer” to others “A speaking A-s”!! used on occasion, for a moment, as an unwelcome wake-up call ! To me I see myself as a highly imperfect & very reluctant “Jonah” type! or one that is bold for a long minute & then running , hiding, sinking into sorrow from exhaustion the next” Elijah” typ. I despise controversy but deeply love & cherish the Bible God of my understanding & value the often preventive wisdom that flows through. I prefer to remain “Annon” so the inspired message & not me who is of limited scholastic education, filled with mountains of character defects & imperfections, will not be the focus or reason for complete dismissal of an inspired message. That said I still hope you will prayerfully consider the message concerning prayerful removal of things in your Christian life & home related to ” Lord Pluto . “
      Best to you

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    3. I understand. I wanted to have a conversation because I have some questions I would like to ask you if that is okay.

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  5. Dear, Sharon
    Has there been any recent media attention?or any new lead in Michaela's case recently?Have you tried to get help from a good psychic detective I'm not sure if it's true they can help or not? Michaela's in my prayers everyday. I pray that the lord protects her where ever she may be. I don't know why but my guts tell me she is within California. I believe she will be one of those rare child abductions by a stranger to be alive for more than two decades. She will be on all the news channels worldwide with her beautiful mom by her side. How are feeling Sharon with your journey through breast cancer?

    Sincerely,
    Zahra

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    1. No, it's been quiet, and sometimes that is how it should be. I am just putting my faith in God.

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  6. Hi Sharon,
    Have you thought of taking a writing course to help you focus on writing your book? Not to teach you how to write or what to write as you clearly have that part down, but one that can help you structure, time manage, etc. I took a one day writing class once on how to publish and the author said she took a class like this and it helped her with a book. They might just offer one as a community or extension course at a local college. Just a thought! Thank you for sharing all you do about Michaela, I wish her home and in your arms every day. Best wishes on your road to recovery <3

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    1. I have taken a couple of short courses and they have been helpful and inspirational at the time. It is just a matter of getting the emotional backbone to plow through the hard parts. People are always telling me how strong I am, but actually I live in denial a lot of the time and it is very difficult to come out of it and plunge into the reality of the grief.

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    2. I have taken a couple of short courses and they have been helpful and inspirational at the time. It is just a matter of getting the emotional backbone to plow through the hard parts. People are always telling me how strong I am, but actually I live in denial a lot of the time and it is very difficult to come out of it and plunge into the reality of the grief.

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  7. I sent a request the other day about putting up some of Michaela's favorite things and stuff she liked to do. You didn't post it so I guess you didn't like the idea. I think it would bring some light on the otherwise doom and gloom of this blog. Also if Michaela is reading maybe something will jog her memory and help to bring her home.

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    1. I didn't receive your post, which is why it wasn't posted. Sorry if you think this is all doom and gloom. I have written about a lot of different things, but it is about a missing child.

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  8. I didn't mean the doom and gloom as a negative thing. It's just that everything here is heartache. I thought if you posted more things about who Michaela was would bring light to this blog. For example, her favorite color, favorite movie, what she liked to do, cute little things you remember about her. What were her favorite toys/dolls. My daughter was born the same year and loved the heart family, cabbage patch etc. Her favorite doll was Gerber Baby doll.
    I have seen pictures of her with a young boy who looked like he truly cared about her. I was just wondering what ever happened to him after she was taken.
    What did Michaela want to be when she grew up? All of this would give your readers better insight on who she really was. (not just the little girl who was kidnapped)
    Like I said if Michaela would happen to read it it may jog her memory and make her realize who she was before this horrible thing happened.

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    1. Although I haven't written a Michaela's favorites post, I have talked about a lot of these things. Over the years an unbelievable number of people have claimed that they thought they might be Michaela, and some of them have given me one hell of a time about it. I often had to sort through things to ask and things they said to figure out what information about her I had made public.

      The boy in the picture grew up, married a wonderful woman who became a friend of mine, and had a family. We are still friends on facebook, as I am with a number of kids she went to school with, from kindergarten through fourth grade.

      Michaela liked to write, but not long before she was kidnapped Michaela told me she wanted to be just like me, which meant being a stay at home mom to her kids.

      Have you read much of my blog? I at one time had it printed in book form and it was several hundred large size pages. There is a lot of stuff in here. I do repeat myself a lot, it's true. It gets harder and harder as time goes by. It gets harder and harder to think about it even. It might crack the shell and then everything will come tumbling down. But I will consider it, and thanks for your thoughts.

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  9. Dearest, Michaela
    Michaela if you are reading this blog, I pray that the love your mom is expressing to you virtually gives strength to some how escape the situation you are in. I'm sure you remember what happened to you 28 years ago how you were snatched from your family that one November day. I'm sure you still remember your best friend Trina,she was with you down at the market. If indeed you are reading this blog look at the number of supporters you have. Most importantly a mother who has not given up on you for 28 years. If you have kids of your own imagine what your mother is going through how her life has changed without her first born child. Michaela all you have to really do is find a way and courage to ask for help if you are in the states just simply dial 911 that's all you have to do and tell them your name. Or if outside the states you are a us citizen just contact your local us embassy. Michaela and once help arrives know that you and your family will be protected no one can harm you or your family if that's what's holding you back don't believe it. MICHAELA YOU CAN DO IT!! You are as strong as your lovely mother you have her genes.
    Sincerely
    Zahra

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  10. Dear,Sharon

    Hello, Sharon hope you are doing well?
    I hope you don't mind Sharon can I ask what made you start this blog to reach out to Michaela. Did a investigator or police tell you she is alive.or is your gut instinct tells you she's here on earth.

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    1. None of the above. It didn't actually start out as Dear Michaela. It started out at the wondering heart blog, which was more generally about my feelings. The investigators don't by and large think there is much chance that Michaela is still alive, and I am not convinced that she is either. But as I have said here many times, if she is not alive then nothing I do matters one way or another, but on the off chance she is alive, she needs me to reach out to her, because she is surely not in good circumstances, and because she needs to know that she is loved.

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  11. Dear, Sharon
    This is a beautiful blog Sharon. There is not a day I don't read it in hopes of an update and also because it's so beautiful. Some of the blogs makes me emotional and teary. It's so well said and organized.
    Sincerely,
    Zahra

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  12. Dear, Sharon
    I was just reading the news. And in Covina California there was a attempted kidnapping of two 10 year old girls. Michaela is always in mind the sketch of the suspect and physical description so similar to Michaela's abducter i know the age range for this suspect is between 30-40 but that's just an estimate. it's a white male long hair, I hope it's him and I pray he is captured. I pray you get a positive end soon. I strongly believe Michaela's abducter is still alive and still in California it's been 28 years since that tragic day but if he was in his 20s that puts him in his late 40's or early 50's.

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  13. Hi Sharon, I have to tell you, I admire you so much for your strength and for the heartfelt words you write for your daughter. What you and your family have had to endure must be the most painful thing a person can go through. As a mother my heart just breaks for your situation and of course for Michaela. I know there are no words that can help or change anything but I hope it brings a little bit of comfort knowing there are people out there who care, people who remember Michaela. I have a daughter who just turned 10 and after reading your post I tucked her into bed. I hugged her tighter and longer than the night before and I thought of you and Michaela. You are living my worst nightmare and for that I'm deeply sorry.
    With much respect, AG

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  14. Dear, Sharon

    Sharon where ever Michaela is always remember that she has a creator who loves and cares for her. I know it's not easy for you Sharon as a mother you are always doing your best to keep her in the minds of as many people as you can it's not an easy task but you are doing a fabulous job. May the lord keep you safe Michaela and bring you back home like Jaycee. Each day when I wake up Sharon I wonder if today is that day you get a call from the FBI telling you we have your daughter with us, jaycee's mom had no idea that she would get a call like that on one August day back in 2009. Every day is a mystery and we don't know what it holds for us. I pray for her every day. I ask the lord to make this day the day that your lovely daughter comes back into your live. Feel better lovely Sharon.
    Sincerely
    Zahra

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  15. Dear, Sharon
    Happy Mother's Day. Moms are the most loving, caring and merciful individuals.

    Sincerely,
    Zahra

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  16. I used to frequent Mission every morning on my way to work, in Union City. One particular day, I remember looking out at a tree on the front wall of Mexico Super and thinking, I wonder what the strings could be for? Well, the other day I came across a podcast mentioning Michaela's kidnapping and my jaw hit the floor. I looked her name up and every detail about her case and I just could not believe what I was seeing! Why? How? I came by to see the tree up close and I found myself considering every possibility of what both yours and Michaela's lives would have been if instead Michaela made it back home to you that morning. I've read your past and most recent posts and I just wanted to tell you that I admire your faith and strength, so much! You'll never stop looking for your sweet girl. Still strong! I'm praying for yours and Michaela's long-awaited reunion. So much blessings, my dear!

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  17. to michaelas mom...I remember when your daughter went missing...I have 2 daughters and the older one is about the same age..my friend and I took our children and drove up to help find your daughter..we brought a roll of stamps and folded flyers and sealed them in envelopes to send out to various places...we didn't know you or michaela...but there for the grace of god...could have been my daughter that was misssing...I remember kevin collins dad was there helping out..he did that whenever a child went missing....I will never forget your daughter...it has been almost 30 years and I still havbe such a visereal reaction..still brings me to tears...I will never forget Michaela

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  18. Dear, Sharon
    There should be a day every year dedicated to missing children who have not been recovered,some agency or government organization should put up bulletin boards stating a time and channel and it should be aired in all the 50 states. I truly from the bottom of my heart would love see some closure in missing children's cases. I think they should put Michaela's case in newspapers because the people from the 80's probably still read the news from a newspaper.

    Sincerely,
    Zahra

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    1. There already is a National Missing Children's Day, and the funny thing is it's today!

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  19. Great I didn't know that. I will pray extra today than for Michaela and all the other missing innocent children. May this national missing children day bring Michaela back to you. My mother is also praying for Michaela. Take care of yourself Sharon.

    Sincerely,
    Zahra

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  20. Hi Sharon, I am just a girl from Costa Rica that recently read the history about your children Michaela and let me say that you are such a strong person. I can´t even imagine how this have been for you, but you need to know that from the bottom of my heart i want this to be solved and I am going to keep thinking about you and Michaela on my thoughts and prayers. There is no more words that i can say, but there are a lot of people of diferent places that keep Michaela in their thoughts and i am one of them. Best wishes on your road to recovery, you can do it!
    I'm sorry for my English but it's not my native language

    With love, Maria

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  21. Just a question I hope you don't mind answering sweet Sharon, I was wondering what should one do if they see a female that resembles Michaela mostly her features not so much the age progression?

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    1. Talk to her. Say, you look a lot like a little girl who was kidnapped in 1988 at the age of nine. See if it gets a response or rings a bell. The police are not able to investigate anything that doesn't have a name and an address attached to it, so you would have to get that information. I don't really think it is likely that anybody, including me, is likely to recognize Michaela in a crowd, but if you feel strongly about it, you would need to get that information in order for it to have a chance of being investigated. Thanks.

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  22. this blog used to be so full of life but now it is so quiet. I check it daily and there are rarely any new posts. we cannot let Michaela's story fade away. Someone out there knows something. Many years have passed but the questions can still be answered. For example the Lyon sisters were kidnapped in 1975. 42 years later their case is going to trial in September.

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    1. As you probably know, I was diagnosed with Stage 3C breast cancer late last year. Since then I have had a mastectomy with complicated recovery, am in the middle of twenty chemotherapy treatments and then will have 30 radiation treatments. I have been busy and tired, and emotionally drained. I actually started writing a blog last Friday, six days ago, but haven't managed to finish it. I will, but honestly mustering the emotional energy has been really
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