Monday, December 4, 2017

That state of the Investigation

Sorry to do this to you, but the blog entry about the status of the investigation can be found at Seeker's Road, link: https://seekersroad.com/2017/12/04/status-of-the-investigation/
Thank you.
And Michaela, this excerpt is for you: 
Honestly, I have come to the point of being able to live with this, with the eternally unsolved crime. I have never felt this driving need for “justice.” I’ve had concern for the safety of other children with a kidnapper on the loose, but I’m just not looking to punish “the monster.” That means pretty much nothing to me. The only thing I really want to know is what happened to Michaela, and the reason I want to know that is because I want to be certain that my daughter is not suffering right now, this minute, because if she is, I need to help her. That is my sole concern. That I why I keep blogs, why I reach out to her.
That, and the fact that whether she is alive physically or not, I want to keep her alive in this world. It has been almost thirty years, but people still know her, people still love her. They have not forgotten her. And that is important to me. I’ve said it many times, but Michaela was a bright and shining light in this world, and as long as she is not here to shine that light, I will carry it for her. That is the only thing I can do, and I will do it.
The investigation is what it is: a huge, tangled, complex beast. Unraveling it and taming it is the task at hand. For me, the task is different and it is pretty simple. It is to love Michaela, to remember her, to keep her alive in the hearts and minds of people around the world. At its depths, my task is to honor the gift that Michaela is to the world by offering it myself. The horror, the outrage, the thirst for justice or revenge, they are just not part of me. They are not why I am here. I am here for love, for faith, for purpose. I am here to walk this path on which fate has planted my feet, and always on that path I am holding my daughter’s hand and we are smiling at each other. Always, my heart swells with her presence.
I love you, Michaela.
mom

2 comments:

  1. Dear, Sharon
    You are beautiful woman inside out Sharon just like my mother. You have a wonderful heart full of love even though I have never seen you in person I can feel it. And if Michaela is reading this blog I’m sure she feels the love where ever she is. Michaela is so lucky because not very many missing children has a mother that is continually reaching out to them. Despite the fact it’s been more than two decades, and you may not be getting a response from her know that if she ever resurfaces she will be so greatful you didn’t give up on her.
    Sincerely,
    Zahra

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  2. Never will forget her. I’ve been reading this blog for just over 5 years now and hope one day you get to find out what happened to her. I can’t imagibe what it must be like. Never knowing. If that happened to my kid I would think about it all the time. Where is she? Just gone no answers. Here then not. Here but where. Why???? Not a day would go by when it doesn’t feel like my heart drops into my stomach because it’s all I think about. I do hope you get answers someday.

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